Fill number 4!

Today was tougher on Charlie. Even the M&M's didn't work. He didn't cry when Dr. Hoffman injected the needle but toward the end of filling each tissue expander he would cry which just says to me that they are getting tighter and causing more pressure. Luckily he recovered pretty quick and has been pretty happy tonight. He's a trooper. I can't imagine what that constant, nagging pressure/pain must be like. Some say you get used to this but I'm not used to it yet. I hate seeing him like this and I feel very sad for him.

Going out in public has been harder too. The first few weeks it wasn't as noticeable but now it is VERY noticeable and usually all eyes are on him when we walk into a room. I know it's normal to stare (I would stare if I saw a baby like that) but it's awkward because I don't think people know how to approach me and ask and I feel weird walking up to them and saying "hey, do you want to know what's wrong with him?"  So I feel a little uncomfortable in places especially where I know people, but not necessarily well enough to approach them about it (i.e. at Lily's dance classes). It's definitely been an adjustment.

New pics from this week...we are at 150cc's in the front one and 85cc's in each back one. The last picture is week 1 vs week 4 (today).